I thought we would grow old together...i thought so many things... That day you told me you hav had enuff of me i lost everything...my dreams my purpose my....everything. I asked for you to help me...kill me...coz i dont want anything else from this life if i dont have you...i was secretly hoping i would crash into a tree or something and died on the spot...cos i couldnt do it myself....i didnt have alchohol in my blood that time to do that....it hurts so much i could hardly feel. All i wanted was to be numb....or just pass out into another world... a world where i didnt have to feel. Like my soul had left my body...nothing can hurt more than what you said the other day. Since then, everynight after i cry i wish that i wont wake up the next morning...but when i do,i wish something would happen to me through the day that'll take my life away... I was so mad at God.. why does He wana force me to accept things that i dont want to accept? I read somewhere that You'll never hurt someone beyond their ability...so why do You





forget it. You're the God. You can do whatever You like. I guess my feelings means nothing. Okay. Whatever You say.